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Monday, October 24

Form 6, survival of the fittest.



Countdown to STPM : 29 days

Fuckmylife, fuckmylife! 
Never have i felt so depressed about anything. Can you believe it? I literally feel like giving up now. Why is it so easy to other people and yet so hard for me? While scrolling through Facebook just now, i realised that alot of my ex tuition mates, although mostly acquaintances, are in Universiti Malaya. And the best part, all their courses are like hardcore ones - Medicine, Accounting, Engineering..

All of a sudden, i feel so inferior. 
Do i wanna enter UM, yes.
Do i wanna do Engineering, yes.
Do i wanna be successful in life, hell YES!

Form 6 is all about survival of the fittest. You never know where you stand. Form 6 is where you experience total extreme scale, where the good ones are really good and the bad ones are really bad. When you belong in between, you are on the losing side already. No one ever pay notice to the runner-ups, need not say those belong in between.

I finally understand the feeling of helplessness. Gosh, so little days left, so much left to revise. I don't wanna screw up my STPM. I definitely don't wanna waste my one and half year in Form 6. I believe in "you reap what you sow". How much i study, that's how good i'm gonna do in exam. And for goodness sake, i ain't sowing much. All i wanna do is to push through the 53 days left. I ask for nothing else.

#fuckingdepressed.

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